Roots of depression and anxiety

No doubt, human civilization has advanced a lot for the last 5 centuries or so, particularly over the last 10 decades. Engineering, technology, medicine, chemical industry, astronomy…We have managed to root out extremely dangerous diseases which raged in Europe a few centuries ago and our lifespan has increased significantly.

Chemical industry has managed to produce relatively effective medication to subdue many mental disorders, such as depression and anxiety, but at what cost? Many suicidal depressed individuals have managed to bridle their illness by means of antidepressants, but many of them have become impotent, dizzy, obese, constipated, as a result of side effects. So, chemical substances will cure one disease and cause another one.

Psychologists recognize that there is a comparatively effective way to cure depression today: Talk! There are a lot of social events and online meetings when diagnosed people can talk to each other. They open up, speak frankly about their problems and feelings and this approach genuinely helps them. But, what really matters is that not only that people should talk about their problems, they should also exhibit sympathy for someone else’s problems as opposed to empathy. When depressed people visit a psychiatrist, they openly speak; he listens to them and tries to find out where the root of the problem is. He shows empathy (understanding) for their problems, but there is never honest sympathy. Understandingly, he is a professional and he cannot show sympathy for each person who comes in his office, especially when his office is crowded with patients. So more or less, we can reduce this to formality and professionalism.

When did you last invite your neighbor to visit your home? When did you last have relaxed and refreshing conversation to your fellow? When did you last laugh from the bottom of your heart? Did you watch at your clock or wrist watch every day? If you see a man lying on street do you call an ambulance or you just load him in your car and storm to hospital? Do you often buy presents to your close people or you just do it for some special occasion? When did you last slap anyone when pissed off? When did you last drink wine with a stranger from the one glass alone? When did you last share your dinner with a beggar on a street?  You see, it would mean a lot to a beggar to give him something to eat, as for you, it will not cost you a fortune and you will feel proud to give a hand to someone in need.

For such a long time, as the matter of fact thousands of years, we have lived together comforting each other when we feel danger, celebrating whenever we feel safe. We used to sleep crammed in a small area, indeed not so private, but it offered sense of security. We used to dance together, holding our hands, around a warm bonfire very often which actually reinforced our unity. We used to give honor to our ancestors through religious rituals which strengthened our bond with our fellows.

Today: our best friends are computers and up-to-date mobiles, we have superficial friends on Internet on social networks, we do not exchange smiles and energy with a friend directly instead of through our computer screen; we steer away from each other.

Generally, these facts are roots of depression and people should become aware of these facts, thus undertaking appropriate measures.

I am an Ego!

Hi, Egos!

I am an Ego! We have adopted "Ego" from a Greek word Ego, which means "I". The very fact that I have been writing this post and while I write it I am aware that I have been writing it (I think , therefore I am) means that i exist as a separate individual distinctive in my attributes.

I am selfish Ego, trying to say something to you all, thus my ideas are imposed to you. Still, my ideas are meant to be well intentioned(hopefully), therefore there is a glint of hope for me that I am not so selfish and I am trying to improve myself.

We all, who try, who search, who blend together prove that there is hope for all of us who hint at an existence of something much more than this house of clay we are imprisoned into. 

Our Reality is an entity composed of classes,while classes are composed of objects. There are 3 distinctive classes living matter, non-living matter and somewhere in between(semi-living matter such as organic matter made of carbon and semi-living organisms such as viruses).

Class non-living matter consists of anything that We(intelligent human beings) worked out names of; mountains, rivers, water, stars, galaxies....and thousands other references and another millions that we will think of in the future. All these are objects mentioned above that are spanned into a Class of non-living matter.

Class living matter contains anything that We gave name to: bacteria, insects, animals... All these objects belong to a Class of living matter.

The 3 Classes as well as all objects have 3 mutual attributes: Size, mass and duration i.e. Time. This means that the entire Reality that everything co-exists in has its own size, mass and is marked by Time within which every Class and Object exhibit themselves. Size and mass are  functions of Time, which means that in time Size and mass alter. For instance, a big rock can crumble or shrink as Time passes.

Attributes of living matter

Be that as it may, as for living matter, things get a bit more complicated, especially for highly developed and self-aware creatures, such as humans. Let's pay attention to a lower organisms first...
Bacteria mainly feed on some other larger organisms and humans are not an exception. They can enter our body feed on us, reproduce and die. Pure and simple: their activities are strictly related to their inborn instinct to eat. They do not have other "Wishes" apart from their appetite and they are driven solely by their Instincts.If we skip a little more developed organisms and move directly to lions we see that they exhibit a little bit more "sophisticated" Wishes. Not only that they want to feed themselves, but they show greed to a certain extent.For instance, a chief of the pride will mate all the females and stops the other males from mating. Similarly, a portion of meat of hunted animals with the best quality goes to the head  of a pride and  his offspring. So, in the case of lions Wishes seem to be increased.

Now, let's move on the most developed species on earth, humans. Apart from all other basic Wishes mentioned above we increased the number of Wishes to a head-blowing number. Big cars, power, self-realization, career fight, gadgets, apparatus, bog houses, gardens to enjoy ourselves, easy love to relax after a few drinks...But, how to manage to fulfill all those Wishes? Besides, are we aware that it is getting ever more difficult to provide ourselves with all those commodities? After all, only a small percentage of all humans on earth will manage to provide enough funds to enjoy the "privileges " that civilization offers.

So far, you will have perceived that Wishes is an attribute of importance added to the 3 main attributes above. Considering the trend over the past 50 years it bodes ill to all of us if we continue without changes. The worst thing is that the more we want to adopt, the more complicated our life gets as we will need to spend time, money and efforts to maintain what we have adopted.As I mentioned in the other pages of this blog, the main reason for high occurrences of mental diseases nowadays is exactly our lust for material things, which is not our real nature.

Attributes of non-living matter

Mass, Size and Time.These are main attributes of non-living matter. Of course there are some other attributes that go by implication, such as velocity(velocity is equal to Path(Size) divided by Time), momentum equals to Mass multiplied by velocity, and so on). In this Reality, we as conscious beings can determine at any moment the position of  any object if we know its mass, velocity and angle(angle is actually a subattribute of Size) by means of simple Newtonian equation. For example, if we know the mass, starting velocity and angle and if we shoot off a ball we can calculate the exact position at any moment of the ball. In other words we live in a deterministic world where under certain conditions we can predict the future. In order to predict the future all that we need is to have sufficient input data and... job done! 

Anyway, if we decide to shift ourselves in a micro world things start to become weird. Micro particles will not allow us to know their entire spectrum of attributes, actually if we measure their momentum, the more accurately we determine it, the less accurate we will know their position. At a certain point if measurement shows the exact momentum(it is not possible to measure it absolutely exactly, but let's assume that it is possible) of a micro particle, this means that it can be anywhere in the Universe!!! Newtonian laws do not apply in this weird and spooky world!!! This results in Heisenberg's equation of uncertainty . The more we know about a certain attribute of a particle, the more we feel pressure of constraints to reveal the value of any other attribute. Actually, in this case we are dealing with another Reality different than our Reality that we are accustomed to. But, what Reality is Real? Logic reasoning imposes that the Reality of the micro world is Real(at least if it is not totally Real, one thing is for sure, that it is more Real than our Reality) because everything in the Universe is made from micro particles!

A Wise Man once said

A couple of thousands of years there was a wise man, which I( an Ego) personally adore, who underlined a very important message: "You people have a free will to decide what to do in your life"

This wise man explained that in order to connect to God, we need  to show attributes which for vast majority will be difficult to accept. It is not an easy task to give up an easy life, with a lot of money in our pockets(or a hope for a lot of money in the pocket), big car and plenty of beautiful girls to accompany us. All that the Wise Man wanted from us is to believe in God and His righteous nature without seeing Him with our eyes and hear Him with our ears and smell Him with our nose. The Wise Man could have brought God directly to earth to reveal Him visually to us, but in that case we would have been made to believe in God as we had all seen Him. In this case the principle of "free will" messaged from the Wise Man will be violated because we have all seen God with our eyes and as a consequence, knowing our weakling nature, we will all accept existence of God, and therefore accept His rules. This is called "bargain" in the sense:"Well, God we have seen you. Now we believe that You exist and we are assured of your power and we love You". But, even more: In this case Heisenberg's principle of uncertainty will be violated as well, because the very fact of God's appearance means certainty that God exists.

Somehow, Heisenberg uncertainty principle and the message from the Wise Man about our free will correspond to each other and overlap. Perhaps, God exist within the micro world  where only probabilities (strength of ideas) for a certain materialization reside. The more conscious we become and the firmer our bond with God grows, the better materialized world we will create together with our Creator. Superficial materialization, such as big cars, crowded cities, large houses with unnecessary gadgets and flaunted lust will be cast in oblivion as time flows.   

Hope for a loss of our Egos should be our objective. We need to melt together with God in one entity and then I will stop writing posts as my Ego will be lost. We cannot have money, power, easy "material" life and sincerely love God as well, because logical reasoning based on Uncertainty principle forbids that. 

Have a good time

Depression and big cities

Once I lived in a big city. Once I used to wake up in the morning to get ready for work while it was still dark. When I got back from work it was dark again as I had to work all day. I couldn’t see the sunshine at all for a long time. Fortunately, there was a suitable substitution for the sunshine as a result of high-tech achievements. Neon lights coming from everywhere around us with beautiful nuances compose such a beautiful new color that I have never seen before. This is a common pattern for an average person originating from a small town to be fascinated by a commodity which comes along with the pleasure living in big cities. For a person who has never been through the streets of a big city this is such an overwhelming situation, that you look everywhere around getting fascinated by almost everything. “How come that this people are so organized? How could this buses and underground trains be so accurate and arrive always on time? Is this development a reflection on people’s mental structure?” I started me asking myself. “I guess any development or inhibition of growth rides on people’s mentality or perhaps, just perhaps it is a mixture of several causes. Who knows?”

You wake up in the morning, you prepare your breakfast, you wash up, you have your morning coffee, you exit your house, you go to your bus stop and you wait for your bus at 5.36 a.m. You finish your job late in the evening, you come home, you have supper, you wash up, and you go to bed.

The following day you have to repeat the same procedure and the following day and the following day. Finally, Saturday comes up, you could relax for a while, your wages are paid and you can enjoy the fruits of your labor. You can go to a disco, have a few liquors and then gradually you become relaxed and sluggish. Your body is relaxed now a bit, your natural instincts are in order again and you can venture yourself in some indulgences.

On Monday you repeat the same cycle, over and over again. After a few Mondays the faces in the bus you go to work with are getting familiar. Now you can realize that they look like a figure made of wax, so cold, so pale. They are staring somewhere with their eyes fixed at one single point and probably thinking of something. After a few Mondays you ask yourself some odd questions: “Are those blokes aware of my presence here in the bus. I am aware of their presence here in the bus, but are they aware of me. How could they be aware of me as they have never had a look at my face? “When I think better no one of these people all around the city have ever looked me in my eyes, apart from some people who work in stores when I go shopping or a clerk in an office. I guess out of politeness they never cast a glance at my eyes directly. I walk through the busy streets of this crowded city, we all are so close to each other but no one is aware of my being.” People in this bus should be my family, they should hear me out when I have something to say as I travel with them everyday”, I am thinking. “And all these lights have lost their beautiful colors and all nuances vanished”, “where have these lights gone?” No problem. I will get some new lights in a new bus” , “I will get some new route to work”, “even though it is going to be longer route the lights around me will be new, more beautiful, more colorful. Faces will be newer, milder, gentler, and less polite. That would be perfect”.

I ride in my new bus and it was full of people. Despite the fact that there is no room for more then 50 people there is far more in it. I couldn’t see the end of the bus to whichever direction I cast a glance. And here a miracle comes: All these people are naked except for a small piece of cloth covering their reproductive organs. They are all dancing around a bonfire. Males have long beard, long hair and females got some kind of decoration pierced in their noses. The weather is cold as it is night and there are no trees around us. It is so deserted and inhospitable area. It is so dark that I can only see the light from the fire burning my face. Now when the dance is getting finished one male of the ritual approaches to me and starts talking some language that I can’t understand. He continues repeating but I am sorry to not understand him. Then all males and females lay me on the rocky ground pointing their index fingers in the sky. It is clear so I can count millions of stars up there different in their size and illumination. The tribe is trying to communicate with me pointing their face up in the sky. The stars are so beautiful, there are no different colors only metallic color descending from the stars, from all those children of the universe. Should I feel beautiful, excited and agitated now exactly as I felt before looking at various  colors? Or should I feel calm knowing that metallic color makes me swim to an unknown direction. Is this rejuvenation real without fear of unknown? Why I am not afraid? Do I know the truth now or I just hope of the truth?

If you live in a big city the first thing that can be used as a remedy against depression is a CHANGE OF DAILY ROUTINES. For example you can change the route to work.

Some scientists also claim that city lights can spur some mental disorders as those can prevent the “light of life from stars” from shedding our bodies. We need to look at the stars at night and to be aware that our Sun is also a star and thanks to the stars we are alive. Stars are our grandfathers and all the elements we are composed of are actually all created on the stars originally. Stars are the source of energy and without them we can’t exist. Stars are composed mainly of hydrogen and helium as well as all other elements.

There are some theorists who believe that our destiny rides on the influence of the stars. On a large scale I agree with them.  Reconnect with them, reconcile with the fact that everything has its beginning and its end and show deep respect towards the stars too as they have their beginning and their end as well.

Human life is just a crumb of extension of star’s life. We share the destiny of the star, we are getting born and we die. The same applies to the star. The only difference is that the star lives much longer then us. Comprehending this awesome fact that even stars which live much longer then us, actually billions of years, will eventually die should give us a peace of mind and confirms that everything has its beginning and its end.

Insane or genius

Hi, guys

At first glance this guy nay seem to you to be a sculptor or a musician, but if you think so I assure you that you are wrong. His name is Grigori Perelman, Russian, an expert in Maths. 

The beginning of the 21st century was marked with a staggering event, when this beautiful mind, ingenious in his field, resolved one of the mysteries in mathematics, unsolvable for nearly 100 years, Poincare Conjecture.

 The Poincare Conjecture concerned the geometry of multidimensional spaces, had broad implications for relativity and quantum physics and helped to explain the shape of the universe. Regarded by many as both the cleverest and the craziest person on the planet, this man first came to the world’s attention a few years ago when it was announced that he’d solved an unsolvable maths problem.

For almost one century, the Conjecture had baffled the sharpest minds in maths, many of whom had claimed its proof, only to have their work discarded after additional critical observation. The problem had broken spirits, wasted lives. By the time that Perelman defeated the conjecture, after many years of concentrated mental effort, the Poincare had affected Grigori so severely that he ended up broken too.He cut off his contacts with his friends, started to grow beard and nails, retired at home with his mother and icing on the cake was his decision to give up on his job. A year later he declined a Field medal, the top award in mathematics and a few years later some evil tongues pronounced him the craziest man in the world when he turned down a million dollar award, explaining about himself that he was not an animal in the zoo to be displayed in all newspapers and magazines.

Now, he is man who lives with his mother, has no income, resides in a small dwelling with his mother's pension. When a journalist stole a moment to ask him: "Why did you refuse an award of a million?", Grigori simply replied: " All that I have is enough! Now that I have penetrated into the secret of the Universe, I do not need that money!". In addition the journalist perceived strong bond and respect between Grigori and his mother.

Many people who know him in one way or another pity him, however, I personally feel that he should not be pitied as he may have extracted one of the most important implication of the resolution of Poincare Conjecture. Perhaps, by means of mathematical equations and methods Grigori has reached the point where he concluded what our universe actually is, and maybe even more: what our role in the global picture is!

One of the most difficult  issues in science is to formulate the right implication of the theorems in maths. For example, one practical application of  Schroedinger wave function, which is actually one implication of it, as for Ron Garret(a software engineer and a physicist), is that our universe is not real. (if you want to know more click here). Now, the question is imposed: Is this implication ( the fact that our Universe is not real) true? How to prove that this implication is true? Answers should be left to analysts....

It is not only Grigori who is referred to as "crazy". Throughout our history we have seen ample ingenious individuals swinging over the fine line between their genius and insanity: Ludwig Von Beethoven and Winston Churchill had Bipolar disorder; Leo Tolstoy was depressive; Isaac Newton suffered from "everything", he had frequent ups and downs in a mood, indicating bipolar disorder;Charles Dickens, Tennessee Williams, Eugene O'Neill all suffered from clinical depression, and so many more...Nikola Tesla gave up his normal life and decided to commit himself to a science, all alone without a family and steady income. He claimed that it is not he who invented all those marvelous machines, on the contrary, something or someone from somewhere is sending bits of information to him which would not let him sleep more than 2 hours a day...

A vast majority of us, humans, would simply reason that all ingenious individuals are crazy a bit and it is normal to assume that weirdness, genius and insanity go hand in hand, but no one asks himself: Why must they all exist together?

In our limited 3-dimensional world to turn down wealth, a beautiful and charming spouse, stable future, means that you are a weirdo..."Seeing" things with your eyes, "hearing" sounds with your ears(which are symptoms for people with schizophrenia) that do not exist in our Reality, do not exclude other Reality that only few are "entitled" to meet, and once they encounter it, they consider our Reality irrelevant and meaningless. Simply: Being crazy in our reality, does not negate being connected with some other Reality, much more "realistic" when we engage in it! 

If interested in a concept of different realities check this

Some statistics about depression

Another reports coming from Norway concerning depression and related disorders are based on studies by two research groups which have conducted experiments in certain areas of the country. Statistical data reveals:" Lifetime prevalence, i.e. the proportion of the population who will have one or other mental disorder during their lifetime, ranges from 25 per cent to 52 per cent. The average prevalence is around 40 per cent." By adding the fact that large percentage of patients who suffer from one or another mental disorder do not seek any help from a professional(the reason may be that they think that this condition is not serious or they simply feel embarrassed to seek help), it turns out that the average prevalence is much higher than 40 per cent.


Do you know that alcohol consumption in Europe is 2.5 times higher than the average outside Europe and that alcohol consumption in Scandinavia has increased by around 20% over the past 10 years? Have you ever encountered the fact that immigrants from Africa and Asia drink less alcohol than ethnic Scandinavians? Do you know that 33% of people diagnosed with depression have problem with alcohol as well? Alcohol is closely related with depression and it is usual to hear from a depressed person that he/she is drowning their sorrow in the bottle after a terrible divorce or for some other reason.

I say tonight

In every defeat I have seen a portion of freedom and when it is finally over for me it has just begun!

An aspect of God

I incline to think that we are just a participants in a very complex simulation in a highly conscious quantum computer  and all that we can see is actually Real, but real for us, real in this three-dimensional system,it is our "reality". If there is a quantum highly intelligent and conscious computer, just one level above our "reality" , then it is logical conclusion that there may be another entity one level above the quantum computer who controls anything one level beneath it.. And so on, and so on....all of them living in their own Realities. If that is the case then it is reasonable to assume for the sake of simplification that the Creator, or God, or The Force is just one level above us and He has only one goal: To make us aware of Him and to accept Him as an entity of the same kind like us!How did I come to this stand?!

For thousands of years God(The creator, The Force, the Universal Spiritual Energy) is persistently trying to get close to us, revealing His beautiful nature of purity and ultimate beauty! He has sent so many prophets, sage philosophers and enlightened individuals who witnessed of Him and our connection with Him. Unfortunately, we keep drifting apart, steering away from all divine messages constantly coming to us. Instead, we choose to develop in science, which is not so bad provided that we harness it in a right way! And again we continue to repeat the same mistakes, we develop deadly weapons by means of science, we use smooth vocabulary, but very few of us are honest! And yet, God continues to approach to us... A fingerprint of God: click here